thats how it always is

by maja jasmin

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released April 5, 2016

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Track Name: it feels that way
don’t dwell in it
just get better
write an album if you want
well i am trying
i want to die but
im writing more and more songs
its kind of stupid
they’re all about you
and everything else that i can’t let go
but my hands are slippery
you slipped right by me
that always how it goes

i have been changing
but i’m still the same me
i must be hard to recognize
because it changes my face
when i am this depressed

i watered all my plants
doctor appointment
friday at 9 o clock
i want to take my life
but im bad at goodbyes
guess i’m not that grown up

thomas tells me
that i’m not empty
at least thats how i heard it said
he believes in me
in my melodies
whatevers going on in my head
does not define
does not confine me
but it sure feels that way
Track Name: sicker
seeing you is just a shitty reminder of what could have been
i don’t like feeling i don’t have feelings but GOD if i did

i am boring when i am sad
people don’t like me then
i guess no one wants it bad
i have really great friends

stay a bit back or maybe you’ll catch
my illness its pretty transmittable
the touch of your back the extreme lack
of feelings make me barely fittable

i keep on risking
i’m twisting the truth
i’m poorly fitting you

the more i miss it
the more i’m slipping
its just a shitty reminder of feeling like this

dont kill yourself!!! you’ll be just great!!! dont risk the chance of getting well!!!
i’m waking up i’m dreaming of you cause i’m only getting sicker
dont kill yourself!!! you’ll be just great!!! dont risk the chance of getting well!!!
i’m waking up i’m dreaming of you cause i’m only getting sicker
Track Name: my body
smoking cigarettes triggers my anxiety
one of the most annoying things about me
my body simply doesn’t want to fit in and
it wants me to have healthy lungs and feel bad

it tells me: go sleep but it won’t let me rest
when i close my eyes i’m stuck in my brain
i am just as tired when i open them again
feeling like a loser when i can’t leave my bed

getting drunk feels like defeating
i don’t want to grow up and be him
my body simply doesn't want to fit in
it chooses wisely but ignores my feelings

you tell me: go feel better and i wish i could
nothing hurts as bad as being compared to you
we are so different its impossible to say
but in comparisons its so easy to stay